When I came to Christ, I was full of generational curses, demons and so much hell that I felt at times like I had my own personal revolution going on inside, but I never told anyone.  I didn’t know much about the bible.  In fact, I had no clue every answer to every problem I had and would encounter was in it.  You couldn’t tell me anything like that.  Others had tried to tell me but I wouldn’t listen.  The bible had become, well, an institution in my heart and mind but it held no power for me.  How could a book hold power?  When my hard head was finally at its wit’s end I asked God to save me, and the Holy Spirit was faithful to begin to teach me how to help myself using God’s ways. 

One of the biggest things I had fought all of my life life was depression, hopelessness and for the will to go on.  Early in my walk with the Lord, I learned a scripture that actually helped me get up and move so I could function throughout each day.  Every morning I awoke depressed, having no hope due to my circumstances.  Eventually, I began to repeat this phrase every morning:  “Greater is He that is within me than he that is within this world.  Get off me Satan, in Jesus’ name!”  I would repeat those words until the funk would leave and I felt like I could get up and move forward.  On top of that, I learned that praising God lifted the spirit of heaviness that hovered on me.  (I did not know at the time that it was oppression.) 

I vividly recall a particular day in the middle of the afternoon.  I was feeling so blanketed with oppression that was so unbearably thick I couldn’t move.  All of a sudden, a thought popped into my head, “Praise God.”  I thought, “Praise God?”  I don’t want to.  I don’t feel like it.  Why would I praise God right now?  I feel like hell is coming at me.  The notion kept floating through my mind, so very, very reluctantly I knelt.  It was as if someone was pushing me to the floor, humbly positioning me and I started to lift my hands (which I still thought was funky) and I began to say, “I praise you, God.”  Over and over I went on and in about ten minutes, the oppression actually lifted.  I will never forget that day.  It was like a miracle had taken place.  In addition, a big smile came across my face and I knew that I had overcome something awful…for the time being.  Knowing I could defeat the feeling that had taunted me all of my life by praising God was a breakthrough. It was a shocker and the absolutely best thing that had ever happened to me up to that point in my walk with Christ.

I came to realize that I have not walked through my experiences that have taught me about God just for the betterment of my life.  I did this for my Father, and more importantly, I did this for YOU so you could learn how to come out of your own hell and be an overcomer.  Make no mistake about it, however.  It will take perseverance, time, and great effort on YOUR part if you want to really be a winner and defeat everything that will come against you in this life.  More importantly, you will learn more and more as you grow up into the things of God.  My warfare has changed over the years and so will yours.  Do not get the impression that you can speak some scriptures out in the air and life will be all good.  If you think that way, you are being misled.   A garment of praise will lift the spirit of heaviness and the best part about God is that He IS greater than Satan is (the one who is in the world).    

To put the icing on this cake, I have done most things this world has had to offer and I can tell you for a fact I was the one who was being misled.  If I could do it all again, I would CHOOSE to do life with Him all the way…there is nothing (sex, alcohol, drugs or money) that can take the place of Christ in you…It is a mystery but it is the greatest one of all.

Molly