Matthew 12:36 “But I say to you that for every idle word men may speak, they will give account of it in the day of judgment.”
Remember: “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never harm me.”
Most of us are POWs and don’t even know it. Some of us have demons within us and some of us have generational curses on us that need to be broken off. We are in times where we work 9 to 5 just to make a living and then live for the weekend or day off, just to have a break. But, I am here to tell you that there is another way to live this life. I asked God to let me hear His voice clearly. I was tired of missing it, tired of being defeated. I needed clear direction. I was a prisoner of war. Some of it was my fault and some of it wasn’t, but I wanted out of the prison I was in. My words had caused a lot of fatalities and I didn’t even know it.
I am trying to be a woman of God the way the Holy Spirit taught me. That is quite different from what I thought it was going to be. I was my own worst enemy and didn’t even realize it. I fought and fought and fought against "them" and pointed my finger at "them." It was not only my finger but it was my mouth that was negative and hurtful to others and me. When you find yourself blaming others for your situation, you need to grab hold of that same finger and turn it right back around to yourself because you are the problem. It is a Catch 22. You have to learn to be honest with yourself about yourself.
One night as I was sitting on my couch, I was led to recount my life, my whole life. Well, after the next several hours, I almost fell off that same couch. I knew that I had something to say to the nations. There is no reason that I should even be alive today. But, there was a big revelation I got that same night. I knew I had been through hell on earth already but I really hadn’t faced the big bad wolf inside of myself yet so I could get set free. Now, I could tell you that I had admitted everything to myself about myself, but the truth was that I had built a wall of protection so tight around myself that no one could penetrate it. I had become what the Bible calls being hardened in your heart. You are still able to function and you are still able to laugh, etc., but you are not really happy inside. The fear of losing again causes you to lash out at everyone and everything, hitting them with your bullets of words and causing casualties that can never be healed in some cases. Others have to have divine intervention to cope with what they have grown up around.
I had a woman tell me one time that I just needed to put on my "spiritual ears." Well, I thought she was crazy. I had never heard of such a thing. Sunday school didn’t pass those out and neither did church. Where do you get them anyway? I said, “What are those?” All I could imagine was that woman standing at my back door with great big ears on. It was quite funny. The more I thought about it, the more I knew I had to start listening more and not talking as much. You can tell a lot about people if you will just stop talking so much. Now, at the time, I can tell you that I thought I had big shoulders, a big heart, and I could listen to anybody’s problems and want to help them, but I sure didn’t want to talk about mine. They were in the past, they were over, now let’s move on. I will shoulder it for you but I am not going to talk about myself. Because of the years of hurt and pain that couldn’t be drugged out, shocked out or counseled out, I would lash out at others as a defense mechanism, not even knowing the destruction I was causing. It was a big deal for me to keep my mouth shut and listen, but I was amazed at what happened inside me when I started to do this.
CRACK IN THE FOUNDATION
I had a vision. I could see a building in my mind and there was a crack in the foundation. It was a thirty-nine year old building that had been standing for a long time. All of a sudden, Jesus came along to fix it. In order to do it HE had to start from the top and take out every brick and do it brick by brick. He had to take out the mortar and the cement until He finally got to the bottom. It was then and only then that the building could be repaired and made new. I had so much crap inside of me that was left from all of the years of hurt, anguish, defeat and yes, the devil that I had to have a complete overhaul. It has taken me years to get here. He did for me what no doctor was able to do, and He can do the same for you, but you have to be willing to do your part. I have learned with God that if I am faithful to do my part, that He is faithful to do His part. He always does what I can’t do.
LOOSE LIPS SINK SHIPS
One of the biggest enemies we have inside of us are our words. Our words are like bullets and we aim them at anyone and think that it will not affect us. Nothing could be further from the truth. The Holy Spirit woke me up one night about 2:30 in the morning and these words kept playing over and over in my head; “The word became flesh and dwelt among them.” I said, “What are you trying to tell me?” He said, “Molly, your words are alive and you are dwelling among what you are speaking.” Well, it hit me like a knife as it always does when the Holy Spirit is trying to tell me something important. I was walking with God, I thought, but my words were not lining up with what I was walking. There is nothing more important on this earth than your words.
I still had a defeated attitude with my mouth. Things were not lining up the way I thought they should. Something was wrong. But, the something wasn’t everything or everyone else; it was me. You have ONE audience to please down here on earth and it is not any man or woman….it is God.
Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
God spoke this world into existence with words. We are created beings. Our words are able to sink ships, lives, and cut children into tiny pieces that sometimes can never be put back together again. Your words can bring you the victory or they can bring you defeat. You have a weapon in your body that will drive your life and it is your tongue. Words are like bullets that can boomerang right back on you and sometimes shred people to pieces. Who are you aiming at, yourself or others?
I am just like you. All I did was just believe. Most women God has placed in my path don’t know how to relinquish their control to God. That needs to change if you want the victory. I have also been around all sorts of people who love God but have such defeat in their lives. Years ago, I had a vision one night. Remember the cartoon show The Jetsons? Well, I was driving in the air in a car that was similar to the ones they had on the TV show. My hands were gripped so hard on the wheel that they were hurting. A voice behind me spoke, “Let go.” I replied, “I can’t.” I held on even tighter. The voice spoke once again, “Let go.” Again I replied, “I can’t.” I looked up ahead and saw a mountain that I was going to crash into. It was certain. I knew at that moment that I was going to die. I had but one option left. Let go and see what would happen or crash into the mountain. Either way was scary for me but I figured that if I didn’t let go, I was dead anyway. So, I let go. The car started to plummet and then as if by some unseen force, the car started to glide through the air. A feeling of complete ease and comfort came over me.
So, that told me right then and there that I was the problem and I had better let go. We, as women, have a lot to deal with in today’s society…a lot. I know because I am a woman. But, there is another way to live. It is better. It is peaceful. You can put an end to the raging war within yourself. But, you are going to have to learn to shut up. You can be wise as a serpent and meek as a dove and still get everything you want, but you are going to have to do this God’s way. There is no other way. The choice is before you.
It is not going to be easy. I have learned that nothing really good and lasting ever comes easy. There is going to be a price to pay. If you are not happy inside and are raging at everyone else, then do something about it. It is time for a change, isn't it? If God did this much for me, what in the world are you waiting for? The time is now.