Matthew 18:12-14 “What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?”

The Oklahoma County Detention Center

Spiritually, I grew up in the late nineties. When the year 2000 hit, Christianity became a worldwide celebrity platform, mainly due to Trinity Broadcasting Network. The intention, I believe, was forthright with Paul Crouch having received a divine vision from the Holy Spirit. Christianity became a "who's who" in the Kingdom, and I benefitted from many teachings, but something inside me (PRIDE) began to want to be just like Joyce Meyer or Paula White or anyone who stood on the platform.

In prayer, I vividly recall telling God that I would be happy with reaching "just the one" if their life could be transformed by my story. But did I really mean that statement? Deep inside, I wanted to be on a big stage preaching the gospel, healing individuals, and bringing souls into the Kingdom.

It has been over twenty-five years since I turned my heart fully to the Lord, and I have learned much. I have been disappointed and hurt through my wilderness years (when no one was watching), but I have learned many things. I believed I was doing the right things all along the journey, but today I can look back, with great humility, realizing how much pride was hidden in my heart. God loved me too much to leave me with this massive problem and certainly would not use me due to it.

So here is the ONE I said I wanted to reach to be happy. The letter is from the Oklahoma County Detention Center. It is verbatim:

Molly                                                                                                                    June- 28-14

You're a Godly Woman or lady, whichever I mean, no disrespect, but I want to tell you how your book impacted my life and how I've learned a few new things about God and pleading in the blood of Christ. I've only been a Christian for over a year now. I have been struggling with my staying on the narrow path.

Your book is very powerful. I've read a lot of Christian books. They all have an impact, but yours I cried, and I felt different afterward. I know why the devil was trying to stop you from writing your book because it's a powerful book.

Will you please pray for me please I'm in a real tight spot. My life either way is on the line. I don't want to go into details, but I want my freedom back. I've really changed and gave my life to Christ. I Love the Lord our God so much because he truly loves me and has saved my life too many times, and wants to have me in Heaven with him.

I wish I had your strength and faith. Your faith, wow, it's so awesome how your faith is so strong. Again, thank you for your book, and I'm going to read it again. I've also told my friend and others about your website and your book.

God bless you,

In Christ.

You see, I was the "one" out of ninety-nine that needed a Savior, Jesus Christ, to rescue me. Prayerfully, this young man was saved and redeemed by Him as well. He was my "one." My prayer was answered. What more do I need to say?

In Christ alone,

Molly

My I AM Story

Red Chair Confessions

The Confession                      

The world couldn't cure me of agoraphobia and anxiety. The fear and panic attacks were crippling. Working became difficult. Paranoia would set in. I always drove on the far right-hand side of the road, keeping a weather eye for the next exit sign, my escape. I carried a brown paper lunch bag with me to breathe into when I gasped for air. Life was a living nightmare.

The Sordid Past

What the world offered me? Medication. My first Psychiatrist assured me that I was not going crazy. The world couldn't quench my problems with alcohol; it only numbed the pain. When I drank, I drank to get drunk. Men couldn't fill the void in my heart. I had had abortions and shock treatments. One weekend, I tipped a bottle of Jack Daniels up and drank it until I passed out, hoping I would die, but then I woke up.

"Why are you allowing this to happen to me" I cried out? God heard. My life was dismantled brick by brick until I had almost nothing left. I had no self-worth, dignity (what was that?), or self-respect.

Today

In 2006, based on a word from the Lord while taking a shower, I began a weekly bible study and charged $1.00 from anyone who would attend. In 2007, the ministry received a $10,000 check, and I began a 501 c 3 ministry: Jesus without the Junk.com. In 2010, the ministry received a $100,000 donation which further confirmed the call of God. Jesus without the junk.com has been privileged to help individuals tangibly through intercession and financially one by one, in prison and globally. Collectively, the ministry has given over 77,000. 

Today, I don’t take anti-depressants. It has been twenty-nine years since I have had a social drink. My memory is fully intact, and I am healthy. I went back to college, on a word from the Lord, at 54 years old. I didn’t even know if I was up to the task. I hold a two-year Biblical Studies degree from Liberty University (with honors) and a BS in Religion (with a 3.79 GPA), except for my final Math credit! I was ordained a revered by my local Baptist Church in 2014 by a panel of eleven individuals (4 Pastors, two of which hold their doctorates.)

Jesus Christ has delivered me free from deep-rooted strongholds, patterns of thinking, and demonic spirits. You can read more in-depth details of my sordid life through The Stained Glass Window at Jesus without the junk.com. I was the 1 out of 99 who needed a Savior.

I am Reverend Molly Painter, and this is my "I Am" Story.